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December 30, 2005

Don't Let the Door Hit You on the Ass on the Way Out*

*Alt. Title: Happy New Year.

Farewell, 2005. Good fracking riddance. I know I still have a few days left of the year, but I intend to hide under my covers until 2005 stumbles violently and drunkenly out of my house. Later, bitch. Don't come around here no more.

  • The devastating Tsunami (you know, "over there")
  • My best friend for 14 years (don't you dare say he was "just a cat") dying in my arms
  • The war in Iraq
  • A loved one living in Baghdad's Green Zone for a year
  • The London bombings
  • Michael Jackson, Brad and Jennifer, TomKat . . . why must my brain be infected with such garbage?
  • Terri Schiavo
  • Hurricane Katrina
  • Spiked gas prices
  • Supreme Court vacancies and nominations
  • The lies and misinformation, the continued, ugly "cultural war" in this country
  • Leaving my job
  • Husband leaving his job
  • Living with my parents for 3 months
  • Two moves
  • Paying a mortgage on an empty house
  • Moving to a new town far away where we know nobody (hence the blog . . .)
  • Having 3 escrows in a row collapse
  • $800,000 in debt for one shining month

But then again, as much as this year upheaved (I don't care if that's not a word) us, it also served as fertile ground for some seeds we planted.

  • We started our film production company
  • I left my insanely stressful managing attorney job and branched out on my own, doing consulting in a field close to my heart, on a schedule that I control
  • T left the military to work in the private sector and loves his new company
  • Jayne Says was launched (hatched? born? kicked out of the nest?)
  • I started a cult church
  • We bought this crazy huge swinging '70s pad, with amazing potential and some land and views (perfect compound for a cult)
  • We've been getting in physical shape, for the first time in a long time
  • We paid off all our debt! (well, except 1 mortgage)
  • We're going here in the near future (best Christmas present ever)
  • Green Zone loved one returned safely home
  • I saw Joan Jett in concert
  • Jett the kitten came into our lives
  • I met several wonderful, creative, funny, witty, caring people -- online, who knew??

Okay, on second thought, it wasn't a terrible year after all. But it was a year of tearing down everything we had and knew, and beginning to build a solid foundation for the future on OUR terms. The demolition may have been painful, but it was necessary. I can't speak with any authority whether the same is true on a global scale, but for us, it was necessary.

This was the year I looked in the mirror and decided (just like that!) I wasn't going to defer my dreams any longer, I was going to live them.

Happy New Year to all of you! I'll catch you on the far side.

With Love and Blessings from the irRev. Jayne

December 28, 2005

How to Spread Hatred

Today's exercise involves a tried and true method of spreading hatred throughout the land, in 10 easy steps.

  1. Formulate an extremist political agenda.
  2. Locate your most impoverished, poorly educated, disenfranchised people, in preferably rural communities.
  3. Preach to them a fundamentalist, exclusionary monotheism using dramatic scriptures from a book written by the only true "God."
  4. Incite the disenfranchised into violence directed against the "infidels," or "heathens," that is anyone accused of corrupting the moral fiber of the "righteous."
  5. Turn your followers against any group with a different skin color, sexual preference, religious practice or personal choice beliefs different than that espoused by your faith.
  6. Prepare your followers for an inevitable conflagration, a dramatic end of days, whether personal or global.
  7. Promise an idyllic eternal afterlife.
  8. Secure insane amounts of private funding for your cause from corporate interests that understand you will support their future unrestricted power if your extremist political agenda succeeds.
  9. Gain a foothold on "moral authority" among the disenfranchised, and spin, spin, spin that moral authority in the public discourse.
  10. Use that foothold to advance your extremist political agendas, including tearing down your opponents by attacking their perceived weak moral character on "religious" or "moral" issues.

Fundamentalist Christians, fundamentalist Muslims, there is no difference. The formula is the same, the results are the same.

Spread it around, Beloveds, like mayonnaise on white bread, like hummus on pita bread, either way, the results are the same. More and more delicious, self-righteous, violent, ignorant hatred. Yummy.

December 26, 2005

Clean and True

There's the daily routine shower. Lather, rinse, repeat. Then there are those showers where you imagine yourself encased in a loose half-molting sheath of flaking dead skin cells. You methodically steam and scrub and exfoliate and shave and scrub some more. Like you're going into surgery. Emerge a clean new shiny snake.

There's the quick clean up before casual company arrives. Wipe down the surfaces, shove the clutter out of sight, clean hand towels in the bathroom, maybe buy some flowers. Then there is the deep cleaning that is done for yourself. The horrified realization, the invisible line that is crossed. Unacceptable. You can't live like this. You will take this last week of the year in this new house, unpack finally. Organize, unclutter. Sterilize every surface.

You know it is obsessive, compulsive, whatever the words are to describe the mindless, irrational dark fast need to have things in order. Out. Damn. Spot.

Then you re-read what you have written and smile. So damn impressionable. Saturday you are reading The Tipping Point and having your heart and imagination swell at the possibility for global social change. Today you have just forced yourself to put down (after 242 pages read in one sitting) James Frey's A Million Little Pieces.

He writes about his addiction (worse than anything you can imagine) and recovery (heroic, I'm hoping) in such brutal, honest, staccato sentences. I internalize the tone, the mood, the ideas. Alone in this Godless world, fighting my own demons, looking for a glimmer of truth and hope and humanity, just like he is. I do not consciously mimic his "style." I am telling you; right now it is my own, it has inhabited me. Give me some Jane Austen and I will be quipping, light, clever.

This does relate to The Tipping Point, in that subtle, small environmental changes (like what you choose to read and view) affects what goes on in your head and presumably the actions that follow.

In a comment to my recent post about blogging "crimes," someone asked me my opinion regarding the difference between writing for yourself and writing for one's readers. My opinion (and others will differ) is this. Those of us who fancy (or delude) ourselves "writers" must write. We write because of our internal need/drive to express. There is no choice. Often, this is a diary, personal journaling, meant to help the writer puzzle through experiences and emotions to glean meaning and truth of his or her life. There is no desire or drive to interact with others, it is personal. And that is beautiful and perfect.

Those of us who write to be read, to be published (and I count myself somewhat self-consciously in this group) are also driven to express what is true. That truth can be in a good argument for or against a position, it can be a humorous story that has you laughing and shaking your head at the same time, that is so true. It can be a flight of fancy, horrific, hysterical, personal, tragic, anything so long as it holds some kernel of truth. About life, people, the world.

But unlike the personal journalers, we do not do this for ourselves alone. Masturbatory wordplay is not as satisfying as an exchanged intercourse for us. We want to touch, reach, affect, stimulate, provoke. We want to strike that balance between writing our truths for ourselves and hitting that resonating note within our readers.

We want to be tuning forks, setting the pitch, so that others, if only for a short while, start vibrating and sounding back the tone, the mood the ideas we have written.

There are people publishing on this most public forum who do not fancy/delude themselves writers. They post more for social reasons, or for information sharing. To amuse, hook up, entertain, befriend, inform. This is all beautiful and perfect. And I certainly feel that pull, and have tried to entertain and befriend and inform to some extent and I hope I have begun to succeed at some level there.

Often, though, this type of blogging, in both myself and others, leaves me feeling empty. I want to hear your truth. I want it to ring true for me. And sometimes, surprisingly and unexpectedly, even in the middle of a meme post, it does and it is beautiful and perfect and I am vibrating at your frequency. I am smoking what you are rolling and we are getting high on the exchange of truth (not absolute Truth, but momentary, fleeting, undeniable truth of the now) and ideas.

Mostly, I want to write. I want to exchange ideas. I want to teach and I want to learn. I want to be a tuning fork sometimes, and resonate sometimes with other tuning forks.

Is it for me or is it for you? Most emphatically yes and yes.

December 25, 2005

Comfort and Joy

Merry Christmas, Beloveds. This morning I am not celebrating the birth of Christ, but the potential awakening of all humanity. (Don't ask why this drives me, it just does. Some people blog about sports, some about politics, some about sex, but for some reason, Jayne needs to blog about Spirit, but only on Sundays . . . See my Fictitiously Asked Questions (FAQ) if you want to know more about these little Sunday Sermons.)

Back to the birth of Christ--many religious scholars theorize that:

  • Jesus wasn't born in the Bethlehem that is south of Jerusalem, but instead was born in Bethlehem, Galilee, much closer to Nazareth (which is about 65 miles North of Jerusalem). Israelnt1(map from here, click on picture to enlarge. Note - Bethlehem Galilee isn't on this map, but is described elsewhere as 10 km northwest of Nazareth.)
  • Jesus' birthday is sometimes calculated as early April, near Passover rather than the dead of Winter, and sometimes as late September, 2 BC.
  • Christians appropriated the pagan (Roman) celebration of Saturnalia, and tacked on December 25 as the birth of Jesus to coincide with the pre-existing winter solstice feast.
  • There have been too many mistranslations of Hebrew (Reed Sea, not Red Sea, Mary was a "young woman," not a "virgin") to render the mythical Biblical stories as historically accurate.

If you want to really go down the rabbit hole with historical Jesus, read Jesus Lived in India (in my sidebar). The practice of holy men following omens and signs to find the latest reincarnated spiritual leader, usually when the child is around two years old, not newborn, is still followed today (Dali Lama, anyone?)

But you know, the more I research religious history, the more I realize its striking similarities to the legal profession. There is no absolute external Truth, is there? There are only beliefs, theories and arguments. And enough varying facts, data, "experts," statistics, cases, examples, analogies, metaphors, scriptural passages, archaeological evidence, emotionally appealing (or repelling) rhetoric to support whatever it is you choose to believe. Shoot the arrow first, then draw the circle around it -- bulls-eye, every time!

Another thing. There is no such thing as a person's absolute "character." So says Malcolm Gladwell, in the popular and provocative book I just finished, The Tipping Point. (I know, I know, I read too much!) We tend to overestimate the false idea of "character" and ignore the small environmental and social impacts that can make a "good" person do "bad" things and vice-versa.

Crime plummeted in New York after a massive clean-up of the graffiti on the subways and enforcement of fare-beating. According to the "broken window" theory in criminology, people with criminal tendencies are more likely to commit crimes when there are low-level signs of neglect in a community. Broken windows, aggressive panhandlers, etc. "invite" criminal behavior. People assume nobody is in charge, nobody cares, and anarchy is one natural response. Address these little environmental issues, let those with criminal tendencies know their actions are being watched and violations enforced, and crime drops dramatically.

Seminary students told to give a lecture on the "good Samaritan" parable will literally step over people in distress if they are told they are a little late to give their sermon. Children taking tests do not fall into clean groups of "cheaters" and "non-cheaters." Whether or not a child will cheat on a test depends on a variety of social, environmental variables.

Apparently, people behave (become actually "better" people) and perform better if their environments are cleaner and more organized.  (Note to self. . .)

Character, according to Gladwell, is not what we think it is, or, rather, what we want it to be.

[Character] isn't a stable, easily identifiable set of closely related traits, and it only seems that way because of a glitch in the way our brains are organized. Character is more like a bundle of habits and tendencies and interests, loosely bound together and dependent, at certain times, on circumstance and context. The reasons that most of us seem to have a consistent character is that most of us are really good at controlling our environment.

This idea gives me hope for humanity . . . and myself. We are all capable of pretty much the full spectrum of human experience and actions, from the most brutal violence to unimaginable loving service and sacrifice. If you think you are not, I submit you have held both your environment and imagination in impossibly tight reign.

If we understand which contexts and environments encourage our more positive human traits, we can choose to create those environments in our lives.

Are you a hostile, warm, fiercely independent, dependent, aggressive, dominant, passive, light-hearted, overly serious, optimistic, depressive, bitchy, patient, sweet, cruel, loving, profound, banal, insightful, vapid, sensual, repressed, caring, apathetic, deep, superficial, irreverent, spiritual person like me?

Do you, too, possess a bundle of seemingly contradictory traits and tendencies, making you rock life's pendulum back and forth, depending on the situation, between being a "good" person and a "bad" person (if only in your own head)?

Perhaps you can join me in Rejoicing today - Ahhh, I am human, this is normal, you are just like me. Sure, we can strive to be "better," or to better control our environments, and I hope that we do those things. But mostly, I hope we can release our need for absolute, mutually exclusive, either/or Truth regarding any external reality, including our own natures. 

I hope you all find Comfort and Joy this Christmas Day. I hope you are gentle and forgiving with yourselves. If you have told yourself you are a "bad" person lately, I hope you can remember the context, the environment, the triggers, and work to change those instead of punishing yourself. You are not the least bit "bad," Beloveds.

You are the Hero of your own story, the innocent child, the Light and the Way. Do you honestly doubt you are anything less?

December 23, 2005

How to be a Blogging Loser

As my Christmas gift to you, I present a list of 25 things you can do to be the best loser blogger possible! I've been doing this for what, three months now? So I'm an expert.

  1. Be deluded enough to think that anyone gives a squirrel's nut what you think about ANYTHING.
  2. Care deeply that nobody cares what you think. (No. 1 and 2 "borrowed" from Pops' hysterical So You Want to be a Blogger post)
  3. NEVER give attribution to other bloggers with a link back to the original work; you should pass off all good ideas as your own! Nobody will ever be the wiser.
  4. Obsess over stats and numbers, and whine when you don't have enough readers.
  5. Post suggestive pictures of yourself or personal sexual details and expect to be taken seriously.
  6. If someone comments or e-mails you on how much they love your blog, assume that person is your new best friend.
  7. Add all your new best friends to your blogroll and share all kinds of intimate information with them.
  8. Post lots of identifying information about yourself, the more the better -- where you live, your real name, where you work, etc.
  9. Badmouth other bloggers, with links to their sites. Blogs are personal and WARFARE is the only appropriate response when someone offends you.
  10. Say stupid things in passing about family members and friends who read your blog, because it is always worth it to get a cheap laugh from strangers than ruin a real life relationship!
  11. Publish on the most public forum ever invented while keeping your comment function active, then insist that your expression is only for yourself.
  12. Have NOTHING to say. Um, here's a picture of a frog. Discuss amongst yourselves. Anyone?
  13. Post maybe once a month.
  14. Have most of your posts be "memes" and "tag" everyone with them. Everyone loves this.
  15. Write mostly about how cute your kids are.
  16. Be THIN-SKINNED! Understand that EVERY passing reference in another person's blog or in your comments section to something you disagree with is a personal attack on you and respond appropriately. See No. 9, above.
  17. In the comments section, forget matching the tone or addressing the content of the post; instead, comment only about yourself or make a lame joke.
  18. Better yet, put in a completely irrelevant spam comment linking back to your own blog.
  19. Take yourself and other bloggers very seriously and neglect most every aspect of your real life.
  20. Make mostly sexually suggestive comments directed towards the blogger on a non-sex blog.
  21. Be a humorless, strident bitch/asshole. And a hypocrite.
  22. Alienate most of your blogging buddies by pointing out something they do that annoys you.
  23. Insist on writing about cringe-inducing subjects nobody wants to hear about, like your personal spiritual experiences.
  24. Repeatedly beg and whine for someone to add you to their blogroll.
  25. Follow all advice, usually found in authoritative lists written by other bloggers.

Yes, as anyone who has been reading Jayne Says for a little while knows, I have committed many of the above "crimes" and have learned the hard way by being a terrific blogging loser. Yay for me, I win! Anyone care to add to the list?

December 22, 2005

Reader Poll

Sometimes, my little avatar looks a little harsh. Mostly I like it because of the striking resemblance to me when I'm wearing my dorky glasses. However, I like change and easily tire of things. I would like some feedback: Avatar

1. Keep the WTF/glasses/cat avatar. It's Jayne! Bad/confusing to change avatars mid-stream!

2. Make it a little softer, sans glasses and with longer hair now that my hair has grown out (from stortroopers): Avatar2

3. Combination: Avatarglasses

4. Go for something else but still cartoony. Like this (minus the santa hat after next week, but I love the halo!)  SantahatYou can play this little South Park cartoon game here, I know this isn't the most original "look" but it's fun. Okay, I kinda hate it.

(And I'm just following Jaquandor around apparently this week as he has such great ideas and finds the weirdest/coolest stuff, like this game and the hell by design deal. So Larry, you can blame him for that one.)

5. Something else (ideas? But don't forget to weigh in on 1 of the above as "backup" to your brilliant idea.)

Yes, Jayne Says is LADEN with content today. . .

Blawgs and Rights

Liberty_waitsAs a blogger, do you know your rights? If you have questions or want to brush up on legal and strategic issues involving blogging (and I love how law blogs are sometimes called "blawgs") check out the Electronic Frontier Foundation (EFF). EFF is a non-profit advocacy group working to protect citizen rights in the digital age.

Their blogging rights campaign contains useful information about blogging at work, what issues are protected and are not, and how to blog anonymously.

Their Legal Guide for Bloggers is a must-read. Here is an excerpt from their introduction:

Whether you're a newly minted blogger or a relative old-timer, you've been seeing more and more stories pop up every day about bloggers getting in trouble for what they post.

Like all journalists and publishers, bloggers sometimes publish information that other people don't want published. You might, for example, publish something that someone considers defamatory, republish an AP news story that's under copyright, or write a lengthy piece detailing the alleged crimes of a candidate for public office.

The difference between you and the reporter at your local newspaper is that in many cases, you may not have the benefit of training or resources to help you determine whether what you're doing is legal. And on top of that, sometimes knowing the law doesn't help - in many cases it was written for traditional journalists, and the courts haven't yet decided how it applies to bloggers.

Freedom_sake_mdBut here's the important part: None of this should stop you from blogging. Freedom of speech is the foundation of a functioning democracy, and Internet bullies shouldn't use the law to stifle legitimate free expression. That's why EFF created this guide, compiling a number of FAQs designed to help you understand your rights and, if necessary, defend your freedom. [Caveats follow, the guide is only geared towards U.S. laws and does not substitute for legal advice, etc.]

Their FAQ include topics on

To support EFF (as a Christmas present to all your fellow bloggers out there : ) ) click here. No, I am not affiliated with them in any way, they just rock.

I while ago, I made a generous offer to answer your legal questions. No takers at that time, but maybe there are questions now. My specialties are employment/labor law and civil rights, but I can point you in the right direction on just about any topic. Contracts, business, family law issues, etc.

Feel free to e-mail your (or your "friend's") questions and the state where you live, and if there's enough interest, I will start a regular blawg "column."

No, I won't be "your" lawyer, but will act as a general, limited resource guide for you. I am a law geek and live for this. Sad, but true.  Go forth and know your rights; Power to the Bloggers!

December 20, 2005

Magic Numbers

Here's my theory: twenty-eight is, to many men, the “perfect” age for their fantasy image of an eligible woman. I swear to you, this is the magic number.

A few weeks ago when I was in L.A. I caught up with two of my single male friends. We were talking (como siempre) about women and dating. Greg, a connoisseur of women (and an erstwhile lover of mine, about a million years ago) asked me how old I was. I told him (you’d think  he would remember this, after knowing me all those millions of years . . .) and both he and my other friend, C, (hello, at least 7 years) seemed shocked, and leaned in to scrutinize me.

“I wouldn't’t put you a day past 28,”  C announced authoritatively. Greg concurred, then proceeded to tell me how 28 is the perfect age:

See, girls in their early 20's are "all, like, oh my God, that is so cool!" and it's hard to have a serious conversation with them. But once women get into their 30's, they get all bitter and desperate, and (he then proceeded to mimic his imaginary, shrill, bitter, single 30-something woman): “I neeeeeeed a man!”

So then I asked him how his love life was going. Turns out, not so well.

[Update: I adore Greg, he is a member of my inner circle and is wicked smart, talented and funny. He is a movie star but I have promised to keep his identity inviolate. [That means highlighted in violet, right?] Please drop Greg a line if you are a hotshot producer in the L.A. area looking for the perfect male lead or if you are a single woman, 28 or can pass for that, brilliant, beautiful with long, curly dark hair. Like Monica Bellucci. Mbel4Oops, at 37, she might be way too old . . . but he might make an exception for her. ; ) ]

This double-take, puzzled "age dissonance" happens to me all the time. Just last week in San Diego, I was schmoozing with a higher level state representative, trying to persuade him to see the light on an issue involving my client.

During our conversation, he asked me if I had any children (because that's relevant. . . ) and I told him in my typical breeder-deflective manner that I was too old. When asked, I told him.

Blank look, shaking head, denial. “You are not.” I asked him how old he thought I was. He said (like I knew he would, like most men I encounter when the topic arises) “twenty-eight.” This response is getting (forgive the pun) a little old.

Yes, I take care of my skin and body. Yes, my grandparents made a pact with Satan for excellent genes. Yes, I tend to dress and speak a little younger than my chronological age. I live relatively unburdened with the maturity or responsibility that is often forcibly foisted on mothers (yes, yes, there are plenty of immature, irresponsible mothers, I know.) I can be irreverent and juvenile. I can sulk and throw tantrums. I can laugh until tears are running down my face. My eyes often sparkle, a little smirk announcing impending mischief.

And I don’t always mind being thought young and inexperienced. In fact, I love being underestimated, particularly in court and depositions. Sure, relax a little, go gentle on me, pat me on the head with a sympathetic smile. . . then step aside, Sucka, while I mop the floor with your sorry ass. They never know what hit them, poor things.

Very few experiences give me more satisfaction in life than beating the crap out of a bloated, overfed, pasty, white, old, patronizing, sexist, pompous lawyer in an expensive suit and $500 shoes.

But getting carded is right up there, too, vain as I am.

These women are all my age:Czetaj_1 CblanchettJennifera

 

 

 

 

These women are all the "magic age" of 28 (or close enough)Sarahmg:Livt Katieh

Katie Holmes is almost 28? See, Tom Cruise knows the perfect number theory.

Sometimes when a celebrity's age is mentioned, I scrutinize the person, looking for signs of aging, little lines, puffiness around the eyes. This is unhealthy, I know. Terrible youth and image worshiping culture, I know. I know!

I am curious how long men will project this telling number on me. Forget about the other magical mystery numbers (5'7", 120 lbs . . . am I right or am I right?)

I am curious how long this issue will interest me.

I sure hope the magical time and age when I really could give a fuck comes soon.

December 19, 2005

Hell by Design

What would your own personal Hell look like? Thanks to Jaquandor for the link, from here.

The Pope
Circle I Limbo

Michael Jackson
Circle II Whirling in a Dark & Stormy Wind

Stalkers
Circle III Mud, Rain, Cold, Hail & Snow

Parents who bring squalling brats to R-rated movies
Circle IV Rolling Weights

Osama bin Laden
Circle V Stuck in Mud, Mangled

River Styx

Gay Bashers
Circle VI Buried for Eternity

River Phlegyas

Spam E-mailers
Circle VII Burning Sands

Bush, Rove, Cheaney
Circle IIX Immersed in Excrement

NAMBLA Members
Circle IX Frozen in Ice

Design your own hell

December 18, 2005

Imagine No Religion

I am squeaking today's Sunday Sermon in under the wire at this late hour, as we just returned from a weekend trip. If you want more information about Sunday Sermons with the irRev. Jayne, check out my Fictitiously Asked Questions (FAQ). [I recognize that spirituality in blogs can be a bit cringe-inducing. Sometimes, my "sermons" will be more snarky and entertaining, sometimes, like today, they will be more serious. This topic moves me, I will continue to write about it, but just once a week, on Sundays. This blog is chock full of profanity on other days, not to worry ; ) . . .]

I am reading and enjoying a new book, God Without Religion, by Sankara Saranam. His writing resonates with me, because he criticizes the politics, wealth and exclusivity (which leads to division and hatred of those with different faiths) of organized religion as well as the intellectual dishonesty that can be found in the New Age community.

Here is an excerpt from that book:

Not to engage in this pursuit of ideas
is to live like ants instead of like men.

—Mortimer J. Adler

In today's complex world, many people are beginning to examine their religious beliefs in light of their longing for a more meaningful sense of God. Some individuals, while asking challenging questions about the religious beliefs handed down to them in childhood, are uncovering seedbeds of prejudice and divisiveness. Others, exploring New Age spiritual movements, are finding many to be as dogmatic as organized religions. People dissatisfied with dogma and prejudice change radically when they turn inward for direct knowledge of God.

Two steps are involved in preparing to seek direct knowledge of God. The seeker's first step is to assess his reliance on beliefs instilled in him by spiritual leaders, teachers, self-appointed gurus, or well-intentioned parents or friends. It is important to realize that the truth of an idea cannot be established based on the authority of its proponents. In fact, because of their positions some religious leaders no longer engage in actively seeking the truth. Ultimately, only when individuals are free to challenge authority does spiritual growth become possible.

The seeker's second step in preparing for a more meaningful understanding of God is to use his own intellectual faculties to evaluate his beliefs. A critical investigation of beliefs increases the willingness to take responsibility for them and also nurtures self-reliance. My work with students in recent years demonstrates that by holding beliefs up to the mirror of reason it is possible not only to have a profound understanding of God but to identify with a more expansive God.

While evaluating an organized religion handed down to them, many people stop short upon discovering the goodness of an entrenched belief system that teaches such principles as loving thy neighbor and doing God's work. However, just as machines that squeeze oranges are rated not by the health value of orange juice but by their effectiveness in producing juice, organized religions need to be evaluated in terms of their practical influence in the world rather than the ideals they preach, which existed long before the advent of religion. When viewed through this lens, it becomes clear that any good accomplished by an organized religion could have come about without the artifice of a belief system, while the faith's violent outcomes could not be mitigated by attributing them to God's will. Compared with religionists, secularists are just as worthy of emulation when they serve others, and no more culpable when they commit crimes against humanity.

Pressing beyond the positive biases of an inherited religion proves to be extremely beneficial. It unveils negative biases rooted in the seeker's religious background. It also furnishes training in individual and collective psychology, providing tools for penetrating the mysteries of the mind, including the extremes of human behavior, the need for spirituality, and the paradox of our existence as thinking creatures aware of our mortality yet aspiring to overcome it. Many great thinkers who rejected religious beliefs in an afterlife still pursued quests for immortality by striving to improve the human condition through their deeds.

But the study of only one organized religion, as helpful as it is, affords little insight into the overall impact of religion on humanity. For this, we must turn to the study of religious history, a horror story of immense proportions. An examination of religious history reveals that adherents of all faiths have consistently sought immortality at the cost of their earthly existence. Religions fostering a desire to be in a sectarian heaven do not inspire peace in their followers but instead tend to provoke injustices. Even religions that consider suicide a sinful act indoctrinate their followers with beliefs that breed inner turmoil, leading to a slow death. And sadly, the lives of "infidels" and "heretics" have historically been even more disposable in the adherents' bids for immortality.

Another awareness gleaned from religious studies is that religions routinely claim to deliver ultimate expressions of truth, often judging followers of other religions as inferior, or worse, dupes of some evil power. Ultraorthodox Jewish sects teach their adherents that the Jewish soul is superior to the souls of gentiles dogma that many Jews accept with pride. Asian Buddhist sects for centuries approached the search for truth as if it were a competitive sport in which they excelled through one-upmanship. Fundamentalist Christians inform followers that people who do not believe in Jesus go to hell, including those who lived before him, never heard of him, or were raised to believe in another god. Similarly, Muslims tell their followers that Muhammad is the last of Allah's messengers and that Allah's final word must be heard and obeyed by all; for Islamic fundamentalists, this means the whole world must convert to Islam.

Organized religions have done much harm by professing the superiority of their followers and creating such divisive categories as true believers and godless heathens, God's righteous chosen ones and pagans, the heaven bound and hell bound, and the enlightened and unspiritual. Overtly, "us against them" distinctions attract congregants by psychologically empowering them. Covertly, they forge polarized perceptions and a distorted view of human abuses, catalyzing endless violence.

In addition, religious scriptures of all persuasions have imperiled humanity's freedom of thought and pursuit of liberty. Playing on fears of the faithful, scriptural writings exalt those who follow blindly, attack brave questioners who entertain honest doubts, and threaten dissenters with a lifetime of guilt. These writings work insidiously in the minds of the faithful who, intolerant of criticism, have gone on to incite witch hunts and religious wars, resulting in immeasurable bloodshed between religions and within them.

Historically, some of the greatest evils have emerged from displays of holiness. It was usually zealots, sure they had heard the voice of God, who fueled the fires of fear and hatred, directing them toward religious sects, ethnic groups, racial minorities, and women. Humanity is still suffering from the fanaticism of individuals influenced by canonized books espousing erroneous ideas, theologies based on superstition, unscientific cosmologies, false expectations, and unethical commands. And not surprisingly, wherever ethnic or racial minorities or women are treated as inferior, the landscape is parched with ignorance and fear. If there is a useful purpose served by religions that continue to disempower any portion of the human race, it can only be in inspiring us to prevent history from repeating itself.

God Without Religion examines the past effects of organized religion and offers more direct avenues to knowledge of God for the present and future. Chapter 1, "Worshipping by Wondering," explores our present understanding of God; this invitation to worship by wondering rather than believing opens pathways for questioning popular definitions of God while simultaneously observing the effects of belief systems on the human mind. Chapter 2, "A Bigger Picture of Human Progress," shows how we arrived at this point; challenging linear notions of progress, it introduces an ancient model of human evolution and devolution as a means for viewing both the rise of religion and humanity's intellectual and intuitive potential for universalizing God. Chapter 3, "An Alternative to Organized Religion," presents the theory of self, a nondualistic option for realizing knowledge of God; this theory portrays intuition as a verifiable, repeatable, and unbiased psychophysical science. Chapter 4, "Testing Today's Choices," weighs the merits of New Age spiritual movements, points out the pitfalls of modern approaches to Eastern spiritual traditions, and illustrates ways to expand the sense of self beyond narrow spiritual identifications.

Interspersed throughout each chapter are techniques to aid in the search for answers to spiritual questions better answers than those furnished by organized religion. These techniques are universal, having been passed down in one form or another through mystical and philosophical disciplines. When practiced regularly, they help uncover not only better answers to spiritual questions but also better questions. And with better questions comes increased spiritual freedom on one's path to knowledge of God. Readers embarking on this path are advised to prepare for moments of discomfort following the release of one familiar belief after another. Eventually, in ceasing to identify with a narrowing belief system, your identity will grow, enlarged by the very questions you have embodied. And with your newly expanded identity you will be more knowledgeable in spiritual matters, for the more we question any aspect of life the better we come to know it.

Of the many ghosts from the past currently haunting humanity, few are as damaging as religion's outdated dogma and divisive practices. The dogma poses a barrier to intellectual and spiritual expansiveness, and the divisiveness a barrier to world peace. In vigorously challenging these walls until they crumble, we become the architects of our own thoughts, unfettered by conventional forms of worship and free at last to seek God from within.

He said it better than I ever could. I honestly believe that the only way for humanity to be "saved" is for at least 20% of the population to 1) pierce and dissolve the veil of dogma from any religion that is covering our eyes, minds and hearts AND 2) develop and nurture a personal, internalized sense of Spirit (God, the Universe, the field, Love, Truth, the Creator, the Goddess, pick your word; for many, "God" is too laden with negative religious associations. . .)

For when we are quiet, when we are radiant and aligned with Spirit, how many of our ills are instantly remedied?

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